I am tired~~

A lot of things happen recently... no matter is bad or good, I try hard to be strong to face it and solve all of that... I had insomnia for a week more, thought that I could sleep well after today function... but the conclusion is, I fail to fall asleep again... Why? at first, I thought that could be the stress that I give to myself... but it seems like I am wrong... what is the reason that I cant sleep well actually? Myself also dont know why... huh... Start to busy about my thesis, seems like a lot of things gonna settle... What a busy year end for myself, what a busy December for me... I am tired to have a good rest I am tired to be strong I am tired to be alive the higher the expectation, the higher the dissapointment Dont expect too high on me, ok? I am not super girl, I dont know how to fly in the sky I am not that clever, I dont know how to show that I am innocent I am not that strong, I always cry when I am alone even that I smile all the time I am not that cruel, I care you more than anything even I always ignore you when you talk to me I am not that easy to forget about the past, I remember every single moment with you even it had been ages I am not the fish, I dont know how to swim freely in the water and I will drown if you leave me alone I am tired to be stay awake in these days I am tired to be alive in this world