L?

Am I making the right choice?

I wonder....

out of sudden...

something happen...

out of sudden...

I don't know... everything moving fast...

I have not even get use to it perhaps...

what does LOVE mean?

does it mean forever? No, it doesn't

does it mean happiness? No, it never be sure....

does it mean everything? No, it isn't everything

so... what does it actually mean?

sorry

being together is not always the best choice for 2 peoples who are actually in love...
then what would be the best choice? being apart?

I'm confuse with the word "LOVE"
what does it mean?
it mean romance sometime... it mean nice sometime...
and now it mean cruel?

seeing people suffer but nothing I could do much for them...
I feel so guilty... they help me a lot when I need them...
they stay right beside me when I need a shoulder to cry...
but now, I did nothing... I'm not able to do anything other than stand there and seeing how they suffer...

I feel pain... I feel their tears...

but I did not say anything to anyone of them...
cause I know... what they need, what they want...

being suffer now is better than letting them to be fail again in future...
anyway, no one will know what will happen next... for sure...
no one can predict what will come next and who will leave....

Sorry... for those friends that asking me to take care of them well...
I not think I did it well... but I will still keep on try my best to take care of them whenever they need me...

and my opinion always is...

being apart might be slightly better for some people if they think they are right...

no one have the right to judge their life, no one have the right to help them making their choice...
so.. stop asking me... I not going to persuade anyone to do anything...
I will just say...

"Friend, I support you no matter what is your decision... but of course, if I found that you seriously make a wrong choice,  I will try to warn you... and if you insist then God bless you... just hope that I was wrong by that time... cheers!" =)

LOVE is only PART of our LIFE

LIFE isn't all about LOVE

you will find your way out someday somehow... stay strong...
time would heal your pain well... lets fade away the past and welcome the new life

世界末日论！

人说：玛雅预言 21.12.2012 是末日
结果：末日并没有发生
人又说：玛雅预言都骗人的


其实
都是人在说

21.12.2012 只是玛雅立法里的最后一天
过了今天，玛雅就会开始另一个循环的立法

所以
末日论，根本不存在

而
玛雅预言，也没有欺骗大家

所以
世界未末日！

~misc~

或许
我不喜欢承诺，因为要是办不到一切都只是空的

或许
我不喜欢鲜花，因为不切实际
不过，有哪个女生会拒绝鲜花？

或许
我没有安全感，因为一切似乎来得太快了
有点措手不及

或许
我什么都没说，因为说了不一定可以解决问题

或许
明天就是末日，而还来不及说爱你

或许
我们就应该珍惜当下，忘了所有的烦恼

烦恼啊，自找的
快乐啊，要珍惜

2012 12 18 01:14

I AM READY!!!

I am now ready...!!!

I am ready for any challenges...

I am ready for anything new...

最近~

最近我改变了口味

最近我喝多了水

最近我吃了很多菜

最近我很容易就被感动

最近我轻易的就会喜欢上一个人

最近我很也容易讨厌一个人

最近我的心情很容易被影响

最近一件小事就足以让我想很多

最近一个小决定我也需要很长的时间考虑

最近的我都不果断

最近的顾虑多了

最近思考很多

最近想很多

最近的我懒得出门

最近的我很宅

最近的我很不像我

最近的我不一样了吗？

最近我变了吗？

是好？是坏？

突然

同一个问题

来自我的家人,朋友,旧同学,还有陌生人

一直

我也不知道真正的原因

不过

突然我想我知道了为什么

为什么我选择离乡背景

为什么我不留在家里

为什么我要离开这里

突然

我有了答案

面具

每个人都带着面具
无论是好，是坏

就算是面对着至亲，挚爱
每个人都有不一样的面具

不累吗？

我曾经以为坦白，诚实，面对自己，也用自己最真的一面去面对全世界
是很好的

原来
一点都不是
说穿了自己的秘密，展现了自己最真的那一面
只会换来别人的看不起，别人的不削

别人的面具犹如变脸
总把自己捧得高高在上，再把你看在地上
其实，或许那个人比你更糟

可是，他就是有本事把自己吹捧在天上
骗了全世界，骗了你，骗了自己

奉劝那些总自以为清高的人，不要看不起别人
他们只不过比你更勇敢地面对自己
比你更有勇气把自己骨子里的真都抖完出来

看来，我也是时候开始把面具戴上
无论对谁

请原谅我
因为，是你们教会了我什么叫自命清高
什么叫面具

it's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember.

朋友们都结婚去了！

身边的朋友，
结婚的结婚，生小孩的生小孩，拍拖的拍拖，暧昧的暧昧

我呢？
回头望一望，还真的就只剩下我

朋友们常说，不要那么挑
可是，我曾几何时挑过了呢？
因为，根本没人给我挑啊! =.=

再来，朋友们说
看到喜欢的就主动出击好了，不要再说什么女生的矜持
不过，就是没看到啊
也不可能，随便街上一个帅哥，你就跑去问人当不当你男朋友吧？

有时候想
只身一人的，不错嘛！无拘无束！
暗地里，多想有个人来管一管我啊！


有时候想
自己并没有要求很高啊
只希望累的时候，有个肩膀靠一靠
很奢侈吗？


不需要很帅！不需要高过我！
不需要很有钱！不需要厉害过我！


很难吗？




朋友说
我长得太串了！太强了！
没有人敢靠近我！

天啊！

我想，
如果可以，
我也希望自己只有160cm，个子小小的惹人疼啊！
不过，我学不会缩骨功啊！
也没钱整容！

难道，就这样注定了吗？

最近，真的很累！
笑得很累！坚强的很累！

可以有个依靠吗？

幸福的朋友们，记得要快乐！

~~

is exactly one year~
Happy Working Anniversary to myself... ^^

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Is pain, but I gained
Is hurt, but I learned

this journey have no end
it is long
seems walk far from the beginning, yet I still far far away from the other side

either go through it or move backward then gain nothing

my choice: keep moving no matter what is the trouble waiting for you!

always believe that there will be a better tomorrow

cheers =)

~~

想念是什么？

想念在远方的家人

想念久违的朋友

[想念那个无忧，快乐的我]

Where is the missing piece in my life?

which could brought me happiness and no worry...

panic

nervous

panic

how good if [you] were here to share it with me?

but there is no reason for [you] to be here with me...

I not even know who will be [you] or who [you] are

then how could [you] will be here... >.<

Love Life

L

Love Life

生命

如此的脆弱

[哭了]

无论顺境，逆境

请不要轻言放弃

请珍惜生命

好好的活着

要相信

你还不是最糟糕的那一个

加油

无奈

无奈

我做错什么了吗？

[原来我是那么的令人讨厌]


[还是我该庆幸对别人而言我是那么的有威胁性?]

~listening~

人，常会要求别人听自己所说的

不过，又有谁真正认真的仔细的聆听过？

你，多久没有真正的去聆听别人的故事？

[学着沉默，用心灵听别人的故事]

[Every Good conversation starts with Good Listening]

stranger

没联了

陌生了

遗忘了

[you are a perfect stranger to me]

Being thankful~

I am thinking...
My luck is being with me...
but, at the same time... I realise that.. once you being optimistic, once you being thankful...
everything around you would be good as well... (^.^)

I am forcing myself to face all the truth...
while there are more for me to realise on, more for me to facing with....
I found that, it was actually part of my life... why should I being so suffer previously? (=.=)

Time flies and thing change and people around keep changing as well....
have nothing remain unchanged...
we have no idea when they will be leaving us...
we have no idea when we will leave the one that we loved...

we wont know what is coming up next in our life...

flash those photo of friends in FB today... and I just find out...
one of my FB friend, crash in relationship... and of course, I not sure who is the one abandon the other...
but, anyway... it surprise me....
they are lovely couple in the past... but now, no more...

L.O.V.E is so weak...
T.I.M.E always be the witness for it... =)

thanks god that I still living
thanks god that I still able to see, to talk, to listen...
thanks god~

幸福

今天，第一次

看一位，很“老”很“老”的朋友的演出

很高兴

他一直在努力的实践他喜欢的东西

很巧的

今早，打开面子书

看着“老”“老”朋友的照片，她过得很好（照片里）

当然，希望现实生活里她也一样幸福

更巧的

遇见一位，曾经很熟悉的人

也一样幸福

我一直想知道

关心我的人，过得好不好

而今天，我都见证了他们很好

谢谢！

Drunk? No, I am not at all~

It my first time... to be in E-Library... thanks Nee for that... and you promise that you will bring me to OT for next meet... =P

Always, people around thought that I like to drink...
I love clubbing, I always drunk...

So sorry to say that
If... you thought me in this way... Then, really so sorry...
You are not my friend maybe.... or you are not understanding me enough...
or you are not close enough with me...

I... hate clubbing the most....
I feel so not comfortable under that kind of environment... smoke, loud music...
not my favourite at all....
I had been went for few times (not more than 3, I think) ....
and I swear, I not going to clubbing any more in my life....

I... maybe good in drinking....not easily get drunk...
but, I not really like it...
alcohol... I dint addicted on it....
I still spend my days with watching drama, shopping, washing, cleaning the most...

I am still being myself~~~
^^

Lie~

One day,
you might be able to lie the whole world...
you might be able to lie yourself...
you might be able to lie your heart...

but,
you could not lie your eye...
because,
the tears would roll out from the eye~~~

=)

few days, my mind keep pop out those thing happen in past...

seriously feel that myself was so naive and childish...

all the photo, all the post.. it just keep remind me that how deep was my love in the past...

thanks god.

thanks for let me saw what I should see long time ago...

thanks for knocking my head so many times just to tell me that I should awake from dreaming...

thanks for giving me the chance to go through all the thing...

thanks for failed me again in something that I thought it worth my whole life...

review back all my post, I just realise we did promise to each other once upon a time...

and now... no more...

sometime, I asked... do I still love?

sometime, I asked... do I still care?

sometime, I asked... why?

but always, there have no answer...

all the answer are deep inside my heart...

the reason why I turn off my blog...

the reason why I change my account...

it just because, I was so scare...

I scare anything that could remind me about us...

but today... it's April fool...

ok, fine.. I know it have nothing related... =P

but today, I think.. is time for me to face everything independently...

I never love to shopping alone, cause I scare of the loneliness..

but now.. Shopping, travel.. alone, was not a problem for me any more...

I never dare to step out from our past...

but now.. I have to... and the future... it just all about myself...

I found another me there.... ^^

lets cheer for a brand new me~~~

thanks so much for all the while.........

I did said, I never scare to try anything again... but I just worry that I would fail again...

and now, it's proven... I failed~ no one to blame, no one to scold...

moving on~~ always... I will wish that ou found your happiness lastly...

but sorry for this time, I being selfish... I would left all my wishes for only myself and those who really care about and who worth my caring~~~

wish that I can be happy and no worries forever~! =)