~misc~8

just finish bathe... heard that there are 5 peoples failed the subject that we took last semester... I am one of them? I am not sure, but I am shock when I first heard... and now, started worry... how if I am one of the five? I fail, so mean I wont be graduate, so mean I not yet finish my study, so mean I cant start my career, so mean all my plan ruin... nothing I can do other than just pray hard that I am not one of the unlucky five.... (*.*)

finally, clear all my dirty clothes and washed them... quite busy since few weeks ago... I not been home for 2 weeks also, not sure whether anything happen at my home again... tomorrow, will be the only off day for me this week... I have to use the day to study my thesis and prepare for my VIVA on Monday... best luck with me please... I have no idea what kind of question will the examiner throw to me, I have no idea whether the dean or deputy dean will ask me anything about my thesis, I am not sure whether my supervisor will be the one who killing me on that time or not... everything is so scary.... =.=

I have a lot of plan, but I am not sure whether it would be work or not... plan to run away from work for gathering, plan to moving my things back to my home, plan to move all the stuff down to the place that I gonna stay in future, plan to travel while attending conference, plan to have a nice trip after everything is settle down and before I start my career... plan plan and plan...
{If you fail to plan, then you plan to fail}
hope that my plan wont fail at all... =)

and last... I am tired~~~!!!!! @.@

~心情~10

又一次的

不明白

无缘无故的

发脾气

讨厌自己

厌倦

累

想了很久

原来

没有了很多

错过了更多

最苦的时候

不在身边

如鱼得水

遥望

相知

缺少了什么

信心和勇气

信任还是坚持

(= . =)

~misc~7

one down.. and yet anth one is waiting for me on next Monday... hmm... complicated...
alot of bad things happen on me recently... work non-stop... getting fat jor... and the most bad is got saman yesterday... due to illegal parking!!!! so geram... I park evrtm, bt u nvr saman me at all... and now suddenly saw a saman on my mirror whn I wana drive my car away... duno how much tht i goin to pay ths time dy...


I duno the compliment from u is sincere or not, or u are actually teasing me as u always say tht u dun like my works... but what can I do? thts me... and is only one [me] in this world... so... I cnt force evr1 to like me including u.. I wont follow all ur way if I thk tht u are wrong.... and is so unfair for me.... evr1 getting their off during the presentation day, but me? u jz let me off 1day on weekend while the oth also off on the same day.. it mean thy getting 1more offday than me... how u calculated actually? i am wonder, but yet nthg i can do~~!


reciv a weird call this early morning... at 5am!!! yes, is at 5am~!! a number that I duno who is tht, not in my contact list... *i dint silent my phone last night because I scare I cant wake up ths morning if thr is someone call me from school* but, I woke up bt the call at 5am... I decided to pick up the call... and here is the conversation...
me [*silent...]
thr [ *silent...] [hello...]
me [oh... hello...] [*continue silent...waiting for him to say smth...]
thr [hello...]
me [hmm... hello... who is thr?]
thr [u knw who am i?]
me[*feel so weird...] [ah? who are u?]
thr [u knw who am i? I am XXX ah..]
me [*actly nt really recall who is him...but stil hv to...] [oh ya, wat happen?]
thr [u sleep dy?]
me [hmm.... yes...]
thr [oh...] then [*tu...tu...]
he jz hang up the phone like tht... I was curious, why make him called me in this early morning and ask whether I sleep dy? well... try to continue my sleep, but jz cant... bz it is getting closer and closer to my presentation time... after I woke up ths morning at 9am, I try to recall the name and the sound and so hard I rmb who is him... but, why and what happen actually?
ok, I wont call him back to ask why of course... wont be so stupid...
just let it be... if thr is really smth urgent, he might call me again... but hope tht wont at midnight or early morning such as 5am again... =.=


few weeks, seems getting closer but yet so far... I understand you, but I jz stop myself to understand more so tht I wont get hurts or what... you, does not know what I actually need at all... and mayb you dont even know what urself needed all the while also... god bless you..
thank you for told me so much abt evrthg...
now only I realise all the thg tht happen in the past, and I had pulled into the trouble by someone...
some more, made me as the reason of why thy hurted you... and you agreed with thm, so...
nth much I would like to say...
let it be natural as you said mayb...
you nvr let go, you nvr trust me, you nvr listen to me, you nvr understand me...
you see what I did, but you duno what I had gone through...
you know my name, but not my story throughout the periods tht you was not around...
I told u...
sometimes, I am not afraid to try it again, but I am just afraid to fail again for the same reason... =)
I built tough to faced all the trouble, but I am also feeling tired in this game...

~ B.I.T.C.H. ~

1. I am a Beautiful girl
2. I have my Ideal life now
3. of course, I am Talent
4. and I am Confident in everything
5. last but not least, I am Happy right now

So...
I am B.I.T.C.H.

haha.... xD

~心情~9

开始想，好人的定义是什么？
好女人的定义又是什么？
单纯，白痴，什么都不懂的女人才有资格称好女人？
势利了一些些，聪明了一点点，就不可以是好女人吗？
没有人希望被别人认为自己很坏
不过，有时候是身不由己。
有谁会明白呢？

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
我也不想自己那么聪明
我也不要自己那么势利
我也希望有人可以看穿我的逞强
我也渴望有人可以看破我的伪装
不过，没有人
就是没有人

我的笨在于完全不会让自己看起来笨一点！

所有的强悍只为了保护自己不再受伤，因为身上早就已经布满了伤口


笑一个 =)

明天依然会到，日子依然要过
麻烦依然要来，强势还是要继续
软弱只会让别人看扁自己
希望自己可以软弱，可是更需要逞强来继续保护自己

~misc~6

busy for few weeks... and finally, my first draft submitted yesterday, n my final paper in my master study ended 12pm wednesday also... out of sudd, so free... even thr are seminar, viva presentation waiting for me nxt two weeks and final thesis submittion on 16th June 2011... aft that, I only officially wil end my master study...  but yet... feel so lost now, wake up with no target at all. don know wat to do, like lost in the jungle... no need write thesis, no need study for exam, no need always blaim the lerturer for torturing us untill midnight.... sudd, so free, do nothing, nothing to do... lazy... sleep as long as I can.... although, all of these was wat I wish n wanted before but, feeling so lost... hmm.... =D

dint sleep for two days jz for complete my thesis, stay at the printing shop since 10am and bec to sch at 3pm... no breakfast, no lunch, no sleep... jz for the thesis, and last we submit 4copies to the school... jz for smth which jz wil show pass or fail in my transcript... bt i din study at all for the paper tht wil help me in increase my CGPA... I jz wish to pass the paper, and I put all my effort on the thesis tht I wish I get A... bt the truth was jz so opposite~~~ lalalala...

and later... goin to meet all of the noobies... nana, pingping, dodo and bubu...
today we gonna celebrate ah do bday, haha... ah ping free like me now I thk, submitted the thesis tht torture us for one semester and is near to the end now... ah Na, lama din meet lo... guess she finish exam dy bt stil left viva for her uni life ba... ah bu, lagi lama din meet... duno how he is doin at all... bt I guess shd b alright in evrthg gua... xD well.. is time to prepare leng leng lo... hehe... +)

My Favourite Food ~ *Mango Sticky Rice*

Finally I found my favourite food... *MANGO RICE* at tesco Sg. Dua...
even the it was not as nice as the one I always eat at Sunway Carnival Mall last time, but it stil satisfied my tummy well... hehe =)
I took my dinner at first, and I plan to keep it for my supper later.. but.. the mango smell is so strong and attract me so much untill I cant afford to hold on my plan... and last, I just finish it afetr I back from dinner... and it so yummy... xD Love it~~~

with the santan inside... the sweet mango.... and also the sticky rice... Love it so much... =)