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I asked you why? but you asked me dont to ask such stupid question why? is it the answer for this question was just like what i meant? Do you remember about our deal? Do you remember about every promise that you promised me? I cried once wake up this morning. Only realise that, I hate weekend the most now. why? because, I am too free during the weekend to think about you. because, I will wonder what are you doing over there during your weekend. because, I will get to know that you pass your weekend with her everytime. because, I will think where you are going during the weeked but the one who stay with you is not me anymore... I hate weekend now... and i started to scare... How will my life turn to be after 12th July... after I start my study life again... I pass my 3 years Uni life with you... You are part of it... and now... the 4th year of it... how i going to gone through it? Miss you a lot...>< Take good Care of yourself...

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others always say that, when a girl does not like to bother you... when a girl does not like to stick with you... when a girl does not like to disturb you... when a girl does not like to care you... when a girl does not like to look for you... it means that... she does not love you anymore also already... but... i started to learn not to disturb you... i started to learn not to bother you... i started to learn not to look for you when i am in trouble.. i started to learn not to care more about you... ..... all of these, does not means that i am not loving you anymore... but is because, i know... this is the best way for you... because i still love you, so i let you go away from my life... i dont want to tight you with me... i try to let you go... i started my own life without you over here... does not mean that i dint love anymore... but all is just because i love too much and i know... i wish that i can hug you all the time... i wish that you stil care for me all the while... i wish that nothing gonna change the bond between us... but time passed... thing changed... i changed... and you changed... i change to live without you even i stil love... and you change to do not love anymore...

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try my best to not bothering you, try my best to stand away from you i did, but just cant stop myself to care about you i cant stop myself to review all the memories... she sound so sweet with you she sound dont know anything about us she sound love you so much she post all about you both how about you? why u stil dint admit all the thing? really have to be so secret? why you cant just let me hate you? why you cant just dissapear in my life? you make me hate myself so much!!!

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Moment ago, i just said that i am Happy... but, moment after... you did show me you are not happy with what i asked u again... I dint mean to bother your life, but i just ask what i wish to know... I dint ask about what you doing there too, i just ask what i needed... but nevermind dy, just treat that i never call you... then only i will feel better... just enjoy your life there... and please, take good care of yourself too. you are going to sick, maybe you might need dating and so on... but please... dont make yourself have to date with doctor right after date with her...

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I am happy for this few day. I just hope that, you are not make use of me... I hope that, you did treat me sincerely with your heart... In KL or even back in Penang, I hope that all the time that we had together is true... there is no make use of, or other meaning inside our happiness and enjoy... There are no other reason for you to treat me nicely, talk to me nicely. All is just because of, who you are and who am i... Doesen't because other people or any other things when we are together... even i know that, maybe some of the time you are not thinking of me... but I appreciate what we are having in this few days... Thanks so much... ^^

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finally, 3months had been over. and 3weeks passed. i told myself again and again, i should start my new own life... i did give u a lot of chances, but u dint take any action too. it do hurt me... u said, u did wrong and make mistake again and again... u wasted all the time and chances... does u? or this is ur choice? u have the right to stop urself from doin wrong again and again as u said... but u did nothing... i dont know, what is the exact relation between u and her since the beginning untill now... u dont want to admit, and u just tell me that she is not ur GF at all.... is that true? i try to believe, but do u remember? there is a "lie" inside the "believe".... u both did make call everyday, sms all the while... since u in KL, u did date with her on the weekends... i try my best not to bother u, i try my best to stay away as far as possible from u... n u too... but... i could not delete our story from my memories at all... did u? i wish that the time can be turn back, i hope that we can make a U-turn in our life when we were in a wrong path... but the truth is... we cannot make it... time.. does not stop walking because of anyone... there is no U-turn in anyone's life... u have to move on no matter what is happening... start this moment... what i can do is just make myself confident that u are in a relationship with her... who u care all the while was her, is her and also will be her in the future... we are just friend... just a normal friend who might not talk to each other for a couple of months or years... i am just nothing for u... everytime, i try and i failed... i try again and i failed again... but this time, i cannot fail again... i dint have the right to make myself fail again... i must success.... i must make myself more happier... it is tuff, but i still have to gone through it no matter how i have to move on in my life even u are not around anymore i miss the time that we had gone through all the toughness together, but i just can keep it in the deepest of my heart all the sweet time that we had, all the moment that we share... u leave, u had ur new life, u have ur new partner but i stil stand alone over here to wait for you....

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你的一通来电 冷冷的 冰冰的 没有多余的问候 没有更多的不安或不舍 一点温度都没有 电话挂了 泪流了满面 脸庞的泪也一样冰冷